a true hero

I can't even imagine how difficult it would be to choose a family for a baby I would birth.  But that is exactly where "B" finds herself today.  She's looking through portfolios of families...wondering..."which family will love my baby with all their heart?", "which one will help make his dreams come true?", "which one would protect him and keep him safe?".  She's on an emotional roller coaster.  Some days she falls into deep depression asking herself, "how did I get here?" The next moment she feels hope because of the sacrificial decision she desires to make.  On top of all of this she is pregnant...highly emotional, exhausted, uncomfortable...  Most likely her world is not put neatly together.  Her fears might race her mind as she asks... Does my family support my decision for life?  Will I be disowned by my family for making a plan for my child?  Will I regret this decision?  Will this child hate me for this?

"B" has my prayers whether she chooses our family or not.  I pray blessings over her life.  I pray God shows up in a major way to comfort and give her strength.  I am thankful that she chooses life for her child.  She is choosing like a true momma.  One that will do anything to make sure her child has the best chance at life.  She will sacrifice her own feelings and desires to benefit the life of her baby.  Again I reflect on how honored I am to be involved in the lives of others in such an intimate way.  Adoption is not just about the baby you receive into your home...it's also just as much about the birth mom.  the true hero.

Will you join with us in prayer for "B" and the difficult road that is ahead of her?

"Carry each other's burdens, and in this way you will fulfill the law of Christ."  Galatians 6:2

beginnings

I didn't think I would ever get into this blog thing....but here I am blogging away BECAUSE...our adoption agency called and said we might possibly be paired with a birth mom!  We are super EXCITED but cautious about the possibility!  We have only been waiting just under 2 months and weren't expecting the call for several more months.  The birth mom is still making her final decision before we can proceed further...so we are cautious but hopeful.

Today I was sitting at the computer typing out where our passion for adoption originated.  I started from the moment God opened my eyes to the great need of orphans in our world as I served/lived in an orphanage in Guatemala between undergrad and graduate school.  During this time, I made a promise to myself and God that I would one day adopt and not forget what I saw and learned.  I continued to type out how God brought me a husband who was like-minded about adoption.  I typed about how we always wanted to make adoption Plan A in our family planning.  As I was typing, I had this strong emotion well up in me and I said out loud "God, I'm ready to bring this baby home".  I'm NOT exaggerating about this next part...not 30 seconds later our adoption agency called and said a birth mom was interested in being paired with our family.  I could not believe it!  Did God really just do that!  Did he just answer a prayer in less than a minute?  Maybe...maybe not.  We will see as this process carries on.  But what I do know is God WAS saying "Amy, I know the desires that are in your heart.  I put them there.  I will give you the desires of your heart."  So now we wait.  How long?  I wish I knew.  I'm not very good with patience.  But what I know is that I'm more excited than I have ever been about adoption.  I can't wait until that baby is with us and the whole world can see that Adoption is an Option.